30092011 生日快樂

生日快樂 HAPPY BIRTHDAY~




OMG 怎麼那麼快就16歲了
真的覺得 老了
難道不是嗎
16年 在不知不覺 混混沌沌下過去了
真的不知道自己到底做了什麼


在去年許下的3個願望才實現了一個
第一個 PMR 8A's
*很好 有了
第二個 祝自己要幸福
*好像沒有?
第三個 shhhh 不能說 不然就不靈了
*absolutely沒有 T.T


其實啊
29號晚上一直在等12點
我期待有誰會來祝我生日快樂
結果
10++ Wman sew 就說了
因為 她已經在睡覺了
謝謝你在夢中還會記得
12++ 不能頂
去睡覺了
半夜爬起來
只有 2封信息
只有一個是生日祝福
一個 ATL催我交form


實在是傷心吶
連那個對我來說十分十分十分普通的hanHANtheu也沒有
真的是 sad 到 pit~
還是要去學校
還是要考試
結果 都是不是很熟的朋友祝福我
hanHANtheu那傢伙竟然忘了陪我留校?!!!
幸好我本來也打算取消的 因為
我確定她會忘記了
就算了吧


然後回來FB
不錯啦
也不少啊
開始比較ok了
晚上 哈哈
留言多到爆



我其實不在乎留言有沒有比人家得多
只是我很期待會有誰來祝福我
*hanHANtheu 不錯 夠特別了
特別到我手都...酸掉~


今年生日最特別了
知道為什麼嗎
因為 我們班上有三個人同一天生日
哈哈
情緒超激動的啦
如果沒考試多好
我們會一起唱生日歌嗎
彼此的祝福
真的 好特別哦
xD


那種感覺好奇妙 特別 興奮
很難形容啦
一個就算了
還兩個~!!
如果你們也遇到這種狀況你們大概也會有這種感覺吧


其實本來打算寫很多
現在懶惰咯
就寫到這裡吧
晚安~


16歲快樂 SWEET 16~ xD


在結束以前 請允許我許一下願望
第一個 拜託不要再墮落了 不要再逃避現實
第二個 我還是要幸福 而且要更加幸福
第三個 ......
*許好了 shhh 不可以說出來 要不然願望會不靈的


就這樣 祝福我吧 ;D

家

我們大家都有自己的家庭
我也有啊


不像家的 家


你們只有一個
而我 有兩個
*不要覺得我很厲害
不是你們想的那種
.....
在這裡實在是不方便透露
熟悉我的朋友應該都懂


以前爸爸很疼我的
現在怎麼變了各樣
爸爸 你知不知道我很討厭現在的你
除了給我錢
你還給了我什麼
以前的你從來就不會那麼對我
現在你給我的感覺跟本就是個陌生人
就好像我沒了爸爸一樣


媽媽 我不是洋娃娃
我不是你說疼就疼 說罵就罵的人
我是人 不是動物
就算是只動物 你也不可以這樣吧
心情好的時候就說我多好多好
心情不好的時候就說我多壞多壞
拜託你不要再說你多偉大了
我們全家沒有你根本就不可能存在
沒有你 我們連最基本的都沒有
是 但就算是也不必一直說出來
你知不知道這樣會令我覺得很噁心


這個 還像個家麼
你們知不知道我最不喜歡的事就是呆在家
我根本沒有辦法跟你們溝通
你們也不知道到底我要的是什麼
我們家何時可以像回以前一樣
開開心心的在一起


哥哥 你知不知到我一點都不想你搬出去住
我還是很懷念以前我小的時候你作弄我的情景
何時開始你最注重的不是我
是不是人長大了被寵愛的感覺都要被沒收
幸福不再屬於我的


我有很認真地告訴過自己
不要問這個家庭給了你什麼 問你給了這個家甚麼
我給了這個家永遠的不安寧麼
明明是你們該退休的時候卻為了我而煩
明明是哥哥該有家庭的時候我卻會一個不小心成了拖油瓶
但你們知不知道
其實我背負著的壓力也很大


爸爸媽媽不懂我
哥哥也不在家
有苦向誰訴
雖然我習慣了自己一個人躲起來哭
我很慶幸的是我還有我的朋友
但是他們總不會陪我一輩子的


媽媽 你怎麼可以理直氣壯地告訴我每個人都是牆頭草
你也不例外
你說我很傻 很笨
每一個人都是自私的
就算連自己的父母也不例外?
你知不知道我的感覺就像是被最親的人背叛一樣
好受傷


我不知道自己還可以撐多久
但我佩服的是
我在人前還是可以笑得那麼地燦爛
難道我也是善於偽裝的一個人麼
我不想 我不要
很假 很討厭


我討厭這樣的自己
我討厭這一個不像家的家
何時才能夠讓我重新擁有 該屬於我真正的幸福

鎖碼

鎖碼。




問我鎖碼是什麼？
說白了 就是密碼的意思啦
只是我覺得鎖碼 這個詞
來的更有感覺些
難道你們不那麼覺得嗎



一年了
我用了這個密碼一年
不是什麼
就是電話的密碼啦



我還記得
那是在你家你幫我弄的
我不知道 你還記不記得
這件小事
對你來說的小事
對我來說一件很深刻的事
記不記得你罵我電話怎麼沒密碼
記不記得你罵我怎麼那麼容易相信別人
萬一電話被別人拿去亂亂玩該怎麼辦
然後你就幫我設了個密碼
然後告訴我那個密碼是你的xxx[不方便透露]
你還記不記得 那時我們用著一樣的電話
只是你的是小黑 我的是小白
*哈哈 白痴 [但小黑小白不是注定會在一起的麼]



然後 不是很久
我們就這樣 沒再聯絡了
只是我電話的密碼從來就沒換過
為的到底是什麼
也沒想到 那麼快就一年了
很習慣開機的時候
手很自然的就輸入那幾個號碼
不曾忘記的號碼
若不是昨晚hanHANtheu跟我一起玩電話
我應該也不會發現原來它一直沒被換掉
只是 我突然手癢癢
再為電話設了多一重的密碼
因為 你說你希望我不要那麼容易相信別人






*我電話的密碼不曾換過 為的到底是什麼?

心痛 又如何

咫尺之外 可望不可及；
自恃风雅 卻凭吊從前。



今天心情十分超級的 爛
但我竟然還可以強顏歡笑?
瞎 =.=
最近想了很多很多
每天卻都在晃神中度過
為啥?
不想明說
了解我的人
應該會看明白



算一算
這個月是第4個月了吧
第1 2 個月時真的很不習慣啊
很慶幸的是第3個月很忙
時間刷一下就過了
但是最近真的很空閒
思緒自然而然地就會飄回去
然後我就會很...down?



曾經那麼好
曾經那麼多話聊
曾經 對 是曾經
那時 我應該每天都過得很不錯吧
恩 是啊
然後很壞的我突然覺得你很煩
每天問我在做什麼吃什麼
那是我快被你那過分的關心給逼暈了吧
但我也只是對你冷淡了些
直到有一天過後
*我還很記得那一個日期 erm 很特別的一天
我開始逃避你 也有一點點生氣你的孩子氣
然後我就不理你了
其實我沒有真的生氣你
我只是想嚇一嚇你而已啦
起初你還有找我
過後就...
Erm 對不起
好像是我hurt到你了厚
然後過後你是在報復麼
是啊 被你傷到了
怎樣
一人一次
公平了沒?



斷了聯繫
像斷了線的風箏
要回來 不可能
剛開始的不習慣
後來卻在朋友的陪伴下忘掉
現在卻無法控制已深深種下的慣性
想改也改不掉
...



人總要失去才懂得珍惜;分開才懂你的好




當然 我不會哭
而那只是在人前
今天我哭了
*hanHANtheu 你不知道吧?
也好久沒哭了吧
能讓我哭的人
你是第3個
而第1個因為第2個人罵我才哭的
不懂?
那就算了



我以為心痛只是種形容
這一刻我才懂那一種痛才是真的痛
是啊
*hanHANtheu 我承認我後悔了 怎麼辦
你說 我們還是朋友 很好的朋友
但是我怕 怕我又再墮落
所以我要戒掉這個習慣
徹底的 戒掉..
沒事不會再見了吧
也別聯絡了
時間會沖淡一切
總有一天會有人取代你的位置
最後 祝你和她幸福 =D



拜託
你們看看就好
知道是誰的也不要多說什麼 不要告訴其他人
自己知道就好
可以麼?
就當作是一種尊重 可以不?
謝謝
*我在這裡急需一個私人輔導員 誰可以來充當一下??

Outing ♥ 02092011

♥ 02092011


Times fly..
It is already last day of my trip laa
Gonna back to my sweet home already
So, I decided to fully enjoy today
:D



I slept late too in this morning
I thought it was already 2.30+am
Finally I done my blog and I went to sleep
Mummy woke me at 8.30+am this morning
But I woke on 9++
Haha call me LAZY PIG~ XD
Had a wash changed my cloth and went down to have our breakfast
I ordered Yeemee today
Bcz papa said it is cheap enough
Btw I just ate some bcz I not very like those kind of food
After we finished our breakfast, we backed to our room to pack our things
Suddenly I remembered my MP3 was charging yesterday and where was it now?
I went and found for it
BUT BUT BUT I CANT TURN ON IT ALREADY~!!!
OMG papa said I spoiled it bcz I connected 2 wires together
But I thought it wont spoiled so easily
So, we had quarrel again
DAMN DAMN BAD MOOD today argh~~



After that we went down and waited for gorgor beside the hotel
Dunknw how long we had waiting for him and finally he came down
We put our bag in his car boot and started to move to Hong Leong head office at PJ
Gorgor had to do his work la
So, papa mummy and I waited for him at the canteen
First, papa ordered panmee to eat mummy drank Kopi O and I kept sms-ing
After that papa read newspaper mummy dreaming and I started to read novel
* I just realised that I havent finish "wei yu zhi cheng" =.=
Long long time flies finally gorgor and jeje came
They wanted to eat bcz they felt hungry again
Waiting for them again
......
Gorgor kept talking funny story laa
And his conversation with his sweetie was funny too ahaha



Then we left there after their meal
U know how much the parking fee was?
It was RM 5, I wonder is it affordable for the workers there?
Whatever la not my prob...
We were heading to Mid Velley now woohoo~
But the bad news was it was really jam there
Finally we changed our plan and we went to Ikea
Quite boring for me...
Btw I'm thinking about my new room hehe
But I cant find what I really like there
But but but I like the baby room there





















See~! I like the bed but it is for children eh la T.T
*I know it is blur laaa
Gorgor kept buying his things and sudenly he asked me whether to buy a table lamp
I quite like the lamp especially the red one and it is cheap too..RM9++ only
But where to put leh
At last, I dint buy bcz my mood was bad just now
But I'm now damn damn regret
I SURE WILL BUY IT NEXT TIME~
After that we went and found for food
Papa gorgor and jeje went and bought while mummy and I waiting there
Damn crowded and we were waiting for a long time
Hehe finally they came and we ate chicken chop salmon chop mushroom soup etc
Then gorgor went and looked for his drawer but it is out of stock
So, we went and paid then went back lo



I slept at car but it was very uncomfortable
I woke and turned on my lappie
EHmm sudenly the line was disconnect when I passed Ipoh
Connect again lolz
Then mummy said want to go Ipoh to buy something for jeje's grandparents
So, we went and ate nga choi gai XDD
I bought wui fan xu too ahaha :DD
Then mummy went and bought her biscuit and salted chicken
Time to say byebye to Ipoh...
BYEBYE~ T.T



Yeayea Finally we reached Penang
But we had to take things to jeje's grandmama
Then went to 'kaima' house but she was not there
So we just can went back looo~



Wao Home Sweet Home~ ♥
I'm lazy to type much already.
End here and I hope that next time I can go KL with my friendsss =)



Byebye~


























Saw this in Pavillion~
I like this very much~!!! ♥♥♥

Outing ♥ 01092011

♥ 01092011


Hello everybody~
Today English again hehe
I hope you all wont close this site straight away laa :D



Woo I felt so tired this morning
You all know why..
I slept at 3++ this morning
CRAZY~!!
Off my lappie at 3 and keep on sms with hanHANtheu till 3++
If not my mummy called me to sleep I dunknw what time will i sleep
Bad girl~
Btw mummy woke me at 9.30am and I continued to lay on the bed until 10am
Then she told me that the breakfast prepared by the hotel were just until 10am
WHAT?!!
I faster woke and brushed my teeth changed my cloth and went down
Luckily the waitress there still accept our order
If not, we had to pay for it
I ordered a set of Western breakfast
After waiting for a long time
Finally I can enjoyed my breakfast WOOHOO~
Wee taste nice xD



After finished our breakfast
Gorgor went and asked for the change of the room
Bcz yesterday we 3 people shared a double bed la
OMG finally mummy gave up and slept on the floor
Besides, gorgor said that the heater in his room is not functioning
Then he changed his room and moved to our room
And we moved to a bigger room :)
After well setting in our new room
We went out~
Where to go?
Sure is book fair at KLCC la
Gorgor said the parking fee at there is too expensive
So, we went there by taxi
Gorgor said want to walk there at first
But luckily we went there by taxi
Bcz it was hot~and far~!!!
And the fee is cheap too ONLY RM10~~~



Yeahyeah Finally we reached there
I'm 16 now and it was the first time I went KLCC
I'm a real Malaysian okay~
Whatever laaa
We faster moved to the hall
But we dunknw where is it so we ask the people in the counter
Finally we reached there
But I walked with mummy and papa gorgor and jeje wanted to go to the CD Rama
So, we seperated into 2 teams



When I walked into the hall I almost fainted
You know why?
There were a lot of English books
Then I just walked straight
At the end I saw Chinese books
BUT I still cant find the books I want T.T
Walked walked walked
Wahaha THEY WERE THERE~!!
Hiyawu's novel and 9 knives~
And lotza lotza writter's books there
But I like Hiyawu's the most
So, I bought 3 of his books and 1 of 9 knives
*hanHANtheu I cant find your yu wo laaaa~
After that, I went to find the book wrote by AhZhong, Selina's hubbie
Felt pekchek bcz I cant find it everywhere
Lastly, I got it hehe
U know where it put? At a high high rack
Ei not all people are tall laa...put such high for what? =.=
Now is the time for me to worry about
Which book should I give up?
Bcz it was already over budget lehhh
But my mummy said "Aiya nvm laa..buy all la abo u sure regret.."
Woo thankss mummy~ ♥
Finally I bought RM 86.xx books



Then we went third floor to find papa
Wao the hall was crowded by people
Damn damn many people
OMG where to find him lolz
Phone him..his handphone was off??!!!
Mummy and I just can walked arond to look for him
Mummy said maybe he will at CD there..?
BINGO~ mummy know him well..
Yea we found him...
Walao eh..I saw he take a basket and it was fulled of album and etc
Papa also shopaholic one~
After that I went and looked for my pen
I like the pen very much
My handwritting is ugly if I'm not write with that pen
I forgot what brand is it la
So, I sms asked hanHANtheu, but seems like she dunknw what am I talking about la
Then I just looked for it at the stall one by one.
At last, I found it at G'soft stall
Yea it is G'soft laaa
RM15 for 1 pack with 10 different colours
Cheap than outside one laa XDD
Then I went back found papa and he then followed me to walk arond
He was too good and kept ask me wan buy this wan buy that?
Ahaha I have good parents~
We walked back to the CD there and my papa told me the album is cheap
I went to have a look..
Eww~luckily no Abin one.
If not my heart will broke into pieces.
And I chose Nicholes Teo's album bcz I heard his song in Onefm recently and I suddenly remember I quite like his song before
Saw Angela's album too and I phoned laoba but he said he got already.
Suddenly I heard a song that I heard in the camp but I dunknw what name is it.
Papa said it is "Summer Holiday" but I cant find la
Then we went and paid lo



We went out and papa called me to take the lucky draw form to fill
Wao papa bought RM18+.++ things so I had to fill 3 pieces
But I need to answer a SIMPLE question laa
I dunknw the answer leh
So, what I did was looked at beside one hehehe
Finally I done and we continued to walk lo
Papa said there was another contest =.=
WHY SO MANY CONTEST LAAA~~ ARGH~!!
What to do...
The task for this contest was more tough - count the amount of popular card on the poster
WTH papa called me count green card he count red and yellow
EHmm there were 68 cards laaaa
Okay we went up to find for food
Gorgor said it was at underground but we cant find~!!
Papa mummy started angry already
Luckily we found it after asked for a salesgirl
Wei that is second floor leh~
WTH uncle Cheang Chee Chong~
Crowded too..
Papa went and bought the food and we reserved the table
Something feel bad happened but I'm not going to say
Happy eating my TIE BAN HEI HU JIAO JI FAN
It was big in size but I finished it OMG
After that I ate half of ice kacang that papa bought and drank 100 plus
Full~~~~~~~



We leaved there and shopped arond
But we bought nothing laa
Then papa said want back already so I contact gorgor
He said meet at the door that we came
Mummy went Cold Storage to buy bread
I bought my favourite cheese bread again WOOHOO~
After we came out, papa gorgor and his sweetie were waiting for us already
Wao gorgor bought a big pack of things and his sweetie bought GUCCI etc
WE ARE SHOPAHOLIC FAMILY YEAHyeah~ ♥
Then we went out and took some photo
Gorgor went and asked for the taxi price..RM30?!!
Just now just RM10 only lolz
Indian makan people~
Sudenly a taxi come and he said RM10
Okay ki chia :D
Papa chit-chat with the driver and he told us he came from penang too
Then they two talked about the politic in penang



Finally we reached at a hotel that near our hotel
Bcz the driver went wrong loo
So we walked back to our hotel lo
Damn pity they two that took lotza of things ahaha
The first thing I did was turned on my LAPPIE again :D
Papa slept mummy ate her bread and slept too
Now I'm alone with my dear lappie XD
.......



It was 7.30pm and we had to go out to have our dinner
We went to a restaurant and ate
They all ate but I didn't bcz I'm still full la
And when papa paid we just know that is was expensive laa
Whatever la
We went to Pavillion again
Walked walked walked
We went to Tokyo Street to take photo and bought some things
I bought something special in a RM5 or 200 yen shop
Then I went to a snack shop too and bought my beloved panda biscuits YOYO~
After that we just simply shopped around and went back loo



Gorgor and his sweetie went to Bosini when on the way back
Afer waiting for them beside the street
Papa cant stand long and we decided to went back first
Before back to our room, we stopped at Mini Carrefour to buy drinks
Yeah we reached our room and I meet with my dear again lolz
Bathe and I'm hungry now~
Enjoy my bread and Jolly Shandy that mummy bought for me
Continued to play my games and BLOGGING~
And also chatting with hanHANtheu on FB~ :)



Haha I'm getting lazy to write long already
So I just simply write at the last part la
Hope u all dont mind about it yea~~ XP
End here. Byebye.
:D



Gonna go back tommorrow~
Home sweet home =D